Acceptance

There was a vision, but I couldn’t see it clearly. Was it a nightmare? No, it was a hope. The hope that I’ve always wished to happen…

I dreamed about you last night. I woke up smiling. I hope you dreamed about me too. Thinking maybe that all the wait is finally coming to an end. I hope your choice is the one I’ve been waiting for. A wise choice that will make me happy and hopefully you too. I only waited for you for God knows how long… I will wait even if it takes forever, even if you don’t read this nor see me personally.

I do not know what is going to happen from here but all I know is that… I want to be with you. I’ve told you how I feel, all my feelings are true. Even if you don’t care, I still do…for you. Even if we there’s no communication between us, I am still wishing and keep on praying that we will meet again and have the chance to be with each other.

I remember you told me not to wait and hope for the love of other people because God loves us…so I told myself not to do it for you, because I know even from the start, it is you that I have always dreamed of. There were times, I asked myself if how long would it heal and mend a broken heart? I knew you were brokenhearted. I knew you loved somebody but just broke your heart. I just hope, you are now okay, and willing to love again, the real love, and not just a mutual understanding. I wish you are happy with her.

Time Machine

I wish time machine is real so that I could go back to the days when I met you, where two hearts were free.
I wish time machine is real so that I could tell you it was you that my heart was beating.
I wish time machine is real so that I could hug you like no one would ever hug you but me.
I wish time machine is real so that I could no longer cry due to some regrets why I chose someone else.
I wish time machine is real so that I could tell the whole world that I love you and hope you would feel the same way too.

Stupidity…will soon vanish!

I am still in my sanity. If not, then I am not here anymore.

Well, it’s hard to be imprisoned and can’t escape from reality. Yes, I do love you despite the fact that you are with someone. Yes, I admit I’ve been struggling this feelings ever since I met you and it’s hard to control it. Being civil when we see each other much hurts even more, but I am left with no choice. Who am I to complain?

Yes, I blame the world for taking me for granted. Yet, I also believe for the purpose of it. I hope miracle works. I’m not praying for you to love me back. What I’m praying and hoping is… someday the world will be fair…that someday this stupidity will soon vanish…and that I can break this to you!

LESSON: Don’t ever fall in love with someone who loves someone else!

Kawasan Falls in Cebu, Philippines!

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This is one of the tourist spots in Cebu. If you are planning to refresh and want to escape from the busy city life you have, go and visit Kawasan falls. You will surely love the place. The picture above is the actual shot (unedited). What you see in the image is what you surely witness when you get there.

Kawasan Falls is a three-stage cascade of clear turquoise water from mountain springs located in Badian Cebu.

How to get there?

  1. From your place (anywhere on earth), take a ride going to South bus terminal.
  2. Take a bus going to BATO via BARILI not via OSLOB. Anyway, you can ask the driver or the assistant one (conductor) to drop you off at Kawasan, it’s just along the road. The fee is nearly Php 130 or more, depending on your chosen bus (air-conditioned or non-air-conditioned)

The exact location of the place is Matutinao, Badian, Cebu, Philippines. Once you arrive there, you need to pay Php 20 for the entrance fee.

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The place is so peaceful and amazing where you can really say to your self how wonderful the creation of God is!

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Some women do their laundry in the river. The shot is not so clear. I was walking while taking several pictures.

There are a few bridges that you need to cross and along the way, near the falls, you can see the small hydroelectric power plant that controls the energy of Kawasan river.

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If you want to swim but cannot do it my yourself, you rent a life vest for only Php 50.

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For those who love to try canyoneering, you can also ask assistance from this booth.

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In my case, I’m not that adventurous. So, I didn’t try any canyoneering thing or wear any life vest. I just enjoyed sightseeing with the beauty of nature and drown myself for a moment to forget all the worries in mind, escaping from the busy city life I had at that time.

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Goodness! So beautiful!!!

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Things to remember while you’re enjoying there:

  1. Swimming is free, but watch your valuables if you don’t want to rent a cottage or a small table.
  2. Cottages (1,500-2,500 pesos) and rooms (1,000 – 1,500 pesos ) are available for rent just in front of waterfall. It can accommodate a lot of people.
  3. Bring your own food if you want to spend less. However, if you want to try some local food, there are a lot of stores, “stalls” and “carenderia” that you might like to try.
  4. Don’t go there on holidays or weekends. It’s too crowded.
  5. Take as many pictures as you can because you rarely visit the place. Unless if you’re planning to come back.
  6. If you don’t like to stay overnight, be sure to leave before 6pm. Else, you ended staying there the whole night. The last trip for the bus going to Cebu City is at 6pm. (In my case, I was standing because I didn’t have any choice and I really wanted to go home. So, I arrived home at exactly 10pm)

Thanks for dropping by. Feel free to give comments and ask questions. Have a great day!

 

White Beach at Moalboal, Cebu, Philippines!

Are you stressed out and want to unwind for just one day? Well, you can try visiting one of the famous famous public beaches in Southern part of Cebu. It is located in Basdaku, Moalboal Cebu.

How to get there?

  1. From your place (anywhere on earth), take a ride going to South bus terminal.
  2. Take a bus going to BATO via BARILI not via OSLOB. Anyway, you can ask the driver or the assistant one (conductor) to drop you off at the market, it’s just along the road. The fee is nearly Php 107 or more, depending on your chosen bus (air-conditioned or non-air-conditioned).
  3. Aside from the bus, you can take this van going to Basdaku from South Bus Terminal. For both bus and van, it takes about 2 and a half to 3 hours to reach Basdaku. A private vehicle can get there faster – for about 1 and half hours!
  4. Upon arriving at the Moalboal public market, you need to ride a tricycle. However, you have to pay for the whole passengers since the driver needs to wait for some before going to the white beach. If in case you’re in a hurry, you can take a motorcycle (habal-habal) and just pay Php 30. Take note: Don’t be deceived by other drivers who ask more than the said amount to be paid.

Before arriving to the exact beach, while you are enjoying the ride with the habal-habal driver, you have to pay Php 15 for the entrance fee and another Php 15. I thought everything was free when I went there, but of course we need to follow their rules.

Once you arrive there, you can enter publicly and no need to pay any entrance fee.

The sea was so calm and the weather at that time was so cloudy. I enjoyed sightseeing. There were a lot of tourists at that time. Basdaku is not only a white sand beach but, of course, it has crystal clear pristine water.

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In this place, you can do the following:

  • Bring your own food since there is no corkage, but you have to cleanup after eating.
  • Bring your own tent if you don’t want to rent any room. Actually, they have some tents for rent starts from Php 300-500. You can also rent a room which costs from Php 1,000-1,500.
  • If you don’t have any tent, you don’t like to stay longer because you’re purpose of going there is just sightseeing and taking lots of photos (like I did with my friend Susan), you can just stay anywhere in the beach. Bring your sarong/hat/cap/umbrella, and just squat.

 

This was one of the tents I took when I went there. It was so hot because we arrived there at 1pm. 

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This was the table that was also for rent, but we didn’t rent because we just stayed there for 3hours under the heat of the sun!

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Since the beach is public, we chose to stay near this area under the small branches of the plants. We ate lunch past 1pm. The cottages cost Php 150, but still we chose to squat and continued eating our lunch. All of a sudden, a rude woman in her mid 40’s approached us to stay away from that place because it was not allowed. We couldn’t even finish our lunch because of what she acted. Sad to say, people there were not so friendly. Other nationalities (Koreans, Japanese, Iranian) who squatted on the sand like us were also felt disappointed. I am a Filipina, and I am ashamed of the action she took towards others. 

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So, I was already in a bad mood and almost forgot my purpose of visiting the place. Good thing my friend loves to pose. I enjoyed capturing some photos of her as well as the beauty of nature in Basdaku white beach.

This is Susana Tero, a very unique friend of mine since we were in college. She loves to pose and usually laughs at loud in her leisure. When I’m with her, all my pain and stressful feelings are suddenly gone! 

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These are the native rooms.

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It was too hot to stay but it was worth it! Look at the beautiful sea and sand!

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We took a selfie despite the hottest weather in the South! (At that time, it was raining cats and dogs in Cebu City area).

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I was dead tired so I just took a picture of my worn out feet instead of taking a selfie!

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Thanks for reading guys! Please fee free to leave comments and questions, I would be glad to answer it. Have a great day!

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Camotes Island, Cebu Philippines

One of the famous islands in Cebu is located across Danao City, Cebu. This is a famous destination of most tourists because of its natural white and sugary sand with delicious foods served by the beach. In addition, the beach is not so crowded compared to other beaches in Cebu.

How to get there?

  1. If you’re from Cebu City, you can go via Danao Port, Cebu Port (Pier 1), Cebu Port (Pier 2), and Ouano Wharf in Mandaue City.
  2. It usually takes up to 2 hours by bus from the North Bus terminal port going to Danao port. If you travel by a private car, it will be faster to be there, and you can park it at Danao port for PhP300 a day. If you take it on the ferry, it will cost you approximately PhP1,200 one way. On the other hand, you can hire a van if you are in a large group, and the cost for one way to Danao port is PhP2,000. For the budget conscious, public transport is the best option. Expect to be at sea for up to three hours, depending on sea conditions. Fare ranges from PhP200 to 350 per person, depending on the service you us and your island destination.

(source: http://outoftownblog.com/camotes-island-travel-guide/)

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Source: http://www.freedomwall.net/travel/camotes-island-travel-guide/

In my case,  I went there in December 2014 with some friends and at that time we only visited few places since the weather was not really good. Despite that, we managed to enjoy our 2 nights and 3 days stay near Santiago White Beach. Thanks to my bff Mary Ann Talisic for letting us stay in her boardinghouse. 

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These are my friends when we arrived at Camotes seaport. Mary Ann was the one who took this picture. Thanks again mer muahhhh!

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Good thing she is working there as a teacher so she is really familiar with the place and we just hired a driver for us during the tour (he became our tour guide too, thanks to him but I forgot his name T_T).

When you arrive there, here are the suggested places to pay a visit to:

Santiago Bay
The Church of Poro
Timubo Cave
Holy Crystal Cave
Lake Danao
Buho Rock
Bakhaw beach

This is Santiago beach. It has white, fine, and sugary sand.

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You don’t need to worry when you’re starving because there a lot of native restaurants (carenderia) with their affordable and delicious meals.

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This is Buho Rock. It is an abandoned resort located in the municipality of Poro, about 30 minutes ride by motorcycle or tricylce from Santiago beach. It is currently under the care of the local government. This is a public resort that only costs as low as Php20 for adult and Php 10 for children. It opens at 8am and closes at 5pm everyday.

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This the cliff where you can enjoy sightseeing, breathing fresh air, diving if you’re a professional diver and a good swimmer!

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Of course, capturing good memories would be fantastic in this beautiful place!

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This is Lake Danao Park. Lake Danao Park is developed and maintained by the Local Government of San Francisco (formerly known as Suangan and Pacijan). This park is a home of the fresh tilapia, endemic trees and distinctive ducks.

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This is their bridge going to the very near and small islet. (That’s my friend Sue who loves projecting in front of the camera.)

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You need to wear their life vest before getting into the boat for safety purposes (especially to those who don’t know how to swim like me T_T.)

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Then, we started rowing. The lake is deep and a bit scary (for me). It looks like it has a live crocodile under the deep green lagoon.

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We safely arrived here.

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Another tourist spot in Camotes is Timubo Cave. It is an underground cave featuring gigantic stalactites and stalagmites with an end destination of a crystal clear water pool. When I went there, I suddenly bumped into someone, a former student of mine from ACLC College-Mandaue campus.

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Next stop was at Mangodlong, one can experience the wonderful sunset of Camotes. The warm color of the sun and the reflection of the beach make it very spectacular during the afternoon at this resort. If you are planning to visit Camotes, Mangodlong is one of your best options. However, we didn’t stay their longer. We just dropped by then went to our next destination.

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Finally, our last destination during the entire day out tour was Baywalk. We went there to buy some fresh meat for our dinner.

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We were burned out and like dead when we arrived home. We didn’t go out anymore and just cooked for our own dinner ( I volunteered to cook a strange dish but they ate it. Probably, they were just so tired and hungry and their stomach couldn’t feel the odd taste LOL).

Thanks for dropping by guys! Please feel free to give comments. Have a nice day!

Feed Your Cells, Not Your Body

I’m not giving up my beloved dishes

I’m just trying to choose healthy styles

If you think I’m too picky about such

Then learn to adjust without putting much

 

It’s not about becoming sexy

But it’s about feeding your cells and not just your body

Come to think about your habit

Suffer for good or give up on it?

Milton

The world is full of surprises. It won’t tell what and when things fall apart. People don’t realize the purpose why life can be so cruel sometimes.

Long time ago, there was a famous writer named Milton. He was so popular because of his works. Many loved to read his poems, it shows and expresses how reality happens. One day, a woman got surprised when he told he wanted to change career.

MILTON: I don’t want to write anymore. I need space and another occupation for a change.

WOMAN: But sir, your thoughts are full of inspirations to share. Please don’t do that.

MILTON: No. There’s no use. What’s the purpose of writing if I can’t see and read my own work?  How would I know if it’s clearly published?

WOMAN: You are badly wrong sir. I’ll tell you, being blind is never an obstacle to stop what you desire in life. This is just a piece of cake, so please don’t give up.

MILTON: You don’t have the right to dictate what I’m supposed to do!

WOMAN: I am sorry sir.

The conversation ended with silence. The woman was right, Milton thought about it. When he was thinking about what she said, he realized she’s right. He went to sleep and prepared to ask forgiveness on the following day.

MILTON: Good morning, can you do me a favor?

WOMAN: Good morning sir. Yes, what is it sir?

MILTON: Could you get me a pen and a piece of paper?

WOMAN: Ok sir, no problem.

MILTON: Before you do something, I would like to apologize about the sarcastic words I said yesterday. Now, I realized you’re right. I should not stop believing in Him. He gave me this talented mind, and through writing I can explain and share to others how wonderful world and life is.

WOMAN: It’s alright sir.

MILTON: Thank you for understanding my deeds. Thank you for letting me know it’s still worth to go on despite this blindness I have. These eyes may be closed, but the journey of words through this prose has great impact to readers.

God never leaves me during my downfall. I will not also fail Him what He want me to do. He gave you as instrument. I know everything has a purpose to live in this unique world.

Milton continued to write and express himself well. By the help of the woman as his secretary, he was able to write poems. People were inspired of his poems and the lessons it brought to them. No words can tell how wonderful his poems. 

Confused Heart and Mind

There is a woman named Bliss. She is very hard to get and kind of conservative especially when it comes to committing a relationship. She is not perfectionist though. However, she wants a serious guy for her life.

When she was in her freshmen years in college, she met some bffs. One of her bffs had a crush to someone named John. He was an Engineering student and at that time their building was close to their department. So, whenever those Engineering students go to the restroom, they could really see them.

Younger years are full of memories wherein they were young, free, childish, and most of all they do not usually care about their feelings if it’s real or not.

Bliss friend named Anne really admired of John and for her to get his attention, she always told John that Bliss had a crush on him. John probably thought it was Bliss who had feelings for him at that moment.

It was year 2006 when Bliss was already in 2nd year and John was almost graduating or maybe on his 4th year. She went to a Bowling Center for her PE activity. Then, she saw him but of course she didn’t mind, as if she didn’t notice him.

She was uneasy because it seemed that he’s watching her. She couldn’t even hit the bowling ball. She was focusing on hitting hit. To her surprise, he approached Bliss but she wonder how did he arrive there? In fact, he did not have any PE classes anymore. Then he asked me something,

“Your PE instructor is Ms. Pretty? She’s my sister.”

Bliss was shocked and answered “Nope. She’s not my instructor.”

She didn’t understand her feelings. All she remembered was her fast heartbeat and she couldn’t describe the feeling. Finally, John pushed the ball because Bliss lost herself and was still in shock. Suddenly, he formally gave his hand and said “John” and Bliss also introduced her name.

It is very common for college students to stay on the stairs especially when there’s no class. They met on their free time and he suddenly said, “Can I have your number?”

He was so proud and feeling like the most handsome student in the campus. Well, John is really handsome but he’s quite childish and does not care what comes out from his mouth.

Bliss answered, “I won’t give it because I don’t have any number to give.”

To Bliss mind, she hated herself so much for being so conservative. She liked him but he was very childish even though he’s older than her, or maybe that’s how he approached women at that time.

Months passed, her feelings for him grew but she knew there’s no chance for both of them. Actually, Bliss was on her denial stage when her friend Anne who had a crush on him asked her about John. Anne didn’t have hurt feelings that they became friends in the Bowling Center. Actually, Anne had a lot of crushes way back then.

On the same year, somebody courted Bliss who happened to be her friend because the guy always go with them, joining conversation and even took her home. That’s the guy’s way of courting her. There was no words. Instead, he was full of actions.

So, they became friends. They always exchanged messages through phone because Facebook was not famous way back then. It was Friendster that common but also almost faced out in since a lot of SNS were trending.

As for John, Bliss missed him especially when she couldn’t see his handsome face. She realized it was really a great admiration, but he was busy maybe doing his OJT.

In September on the same year, Bliss said “YES” to his guy friend who courted her. It was a bit awkward for the courtship was done through text. So, their relationship was not that serious and just like others who had their teenage relationship.

Suddenly, the new lovers were chatting at the canteen with their bffs, and on the other side of the table was John with his classmates. Then, he asked, “Are you now together/lovers?”

He was really a kid! Bliss and her friends didn’t know why he asked that way. Her bf then walked out because he got jealous of him.

Surprisingly, her bf told her that they were cousins. When she asked how come, he said they met in a family reunion and that’s the beginning of disliking each other. The bf’s name is Brad. Brad didn’t want to be close with John. Maybe, there were insecurities but Bliss told and assured him that she didn’t like John. It was her friend Anne who liked him. Bliss was unsure of her feelings. She was young and innocent about relationship.

Bliss didn’t have the chance to see John after he graduated. Also, he wasn’t sure if he’s gone in her mind because there were times that she could think of him. She graduated in 2009 and had her first job right after graduation somewhere. When facebook became famous on that year, she tried to search John in Facebook even though she already had a boyfriend. Bliss and Brad were still together then. There’s no reason of adding him, but she was just curious of knowing and what’s his life going on right now. In short, she wants some updates about him.

And so, they became friends in facebook but not that close to exchange messages.

On December 6, 2010, Bliss went to a mall to buy her first laptop. She was with her friend Mae who helped her search her choice. They were just looking around because they’re not experts when it comes to IT thing and specs of a gadget. All of a sudden, she saw John but in a different shop. She didn’t know if she would smile at him or say ‘HI.’

She was looking at something as if she didn’t notice him.

She hated that feeling again when her heart beats too fast! It was very unexplainable. He was with somebody at that time. She didn’t know if the woman was his gf. Actually, it was so difficult to get some updates about him since he was not really into updating his status in Facebook. She thought she had forgotten that handsome face and strange feeling. The feeling was still there!

January of 2011, Brad bf attended their family reunion and he met John. He told Bliss that John asked him, “Are you still together with Bliss?”, and Brad just answered politely, “Yes.”

He told her about that conversation when they met and Brad teased her, keep on teasing her. It was not a good joke. There’s something in it.

Bliss’s relationship with him is not perfect just like others. Though they have been together for almost a decade now, they have gone through a lot of ups and downs. He cheated on her when they were in college, but she forgave him because she loved and cared for him more than herself despite the fights they have in public where a lot of people can see and witness how they raise their voices.

In February 2011, they had a fight and didn’t have good communication even in phone. It was also the same year that Bliss quit her first job for almost two years of working because she wanted to change her career. She was in her colleague’s house and checking Facebook. Unknowingly, she messaged “hi” to John. She had no intention but just to say ‘hi.’

Then it all started, she felt like a college student again. They exchanged messages and personal digits. They also met twice in March ang June on the same year. She was stupid and did a mistake. He had a gf and she also had hers. She didn’t know what’s going on.

She could still remember in 2012 in her new workplace that she copied and saved his pictures in her pc. She tried to hide his pictures, but Brad saw it when he borrowed it while searching jobs online. That was so silly! She was just thankful that the issue was solved.

Right there and then, Bliss got a lot of sleepless nights. It’s not because of him. Whatever the reason, she can’t really tell. Until now she and Brad have this unhealthy relationship and they don’t know when are they going to settle down because she is not really sure of herself. On the other hand, John and Bliss sometimes meet, but a sad new came to her that he’s getting married next year. It’s confusing because when Bliss asks him when, he always tells her that he’s not ready.

She doesn’t know why the world do this to her. Seeing him, hurting herself, and hoping for a chance. A chance that he also feels the same way. She knows it’s impossible. She knows he loves and respects his gf so much. But, she’s wondering why he does not post any photo of his gf. Are they hiding their relationship in public? What for? She doesn’t understand. She doesn’t want to hope because he is taken and they’ve been together since 2011, the exact year they started exchanging messages in facebook and phone.

OMG! She was also in a relationship for almost 10years now but still no plan to get married. ‘I AM NOT READY! My goodness, my mind is having second thoughts right now.” That’s what she always say to her confused mind.

She doesn’t want to expect about John because what they have is only friendship. Whenever they meet, they just plainly talk about business. She hates it! She really likes this man since 2005! She really hates this feeling. She knows his feelings is just like a sister or friend towards her. She doesn’t believe in fate because it’s the person who did and choose his own fate.

‘What should I do?’

‘We sometimes go out for no reason, eat lunch sometimes but it only ends to friendship.’

‘I want him to be my husband’

She always utters those words on her mind, talking to herself like a fool! She can really make sure to have a good future with him which is very opposite of Chad. They are getting older without future plans ahead. They always rely on come what may and what will happen in the future.

Maybe some of you might judge her for hoping about John, but she can’t please everyone. FYI, she’s a busy person; working from Mondays-Fridays and doing extra businesses on weekends. She believes doing such would be a great help to divert her attention to something else. However, it makes her confused again and again to think if forever will really happen.

For Bliss, it’s really true that ‘your ideal person can never be yours.’ She just hopes and prays that everything will be alright between her and John. She wants to have peace of mind everyday and every night.

P.S., she doesn’t know what and how to call this feeling since 2005 if it’s love or brotherly friendship towards him.

Maybe if she gave her number to him, there was a chance of becoming a couple, and maybe if he’s her bf, maybe they are already married she found the right one.

Bliss always takes good care of things most especially when it comes to relationship. She is the serious type. She doesn’t like shorter ones.

On the other hand, her unhealthy relationship right now with my Brad makes her uninterested to go on because it seems that there’s no way of moving forward. It makes her sick honestly.

To those who are in a long term relationship, see to it that you really want to pursue it and make it last because it’s really difficult to go out especially if you’ve invested a lot. Make sure to let go if you can’t make it anymore. Don’t wait nga unhealthy na kaayo and maglisud nka ug gawas kay maikog kas tuig ninyong duha. Remember, what matters most is the feeling you have. If you’re sure or if both of you are sure enough, then go, settle down.

Thank you guys for reading Bliss’s confusing story.